ModSew:: thoughts

There are so many times that I just want to type out those thoughts I have. But then I started thinking what if that is not what people want from Modern Sewciety. What if I get to the computer and can’t think of those thoughts. Oh wait I don’t have any glamorous pictures to include in this post. And on and on.

I find myself struggling lately to be me, a wife, a mom, a podcaster, a sewist, a part of my kids schools as a volunteer, and I have just come to the conclusion that I am not a good blogger. I want to be but I hold myself back from it. I let those questions up there hold me back. I see all of the people follow on instagram and such “do it all” and I can’t seem to make it a day sometimes without saying I am running around in circles. I haven’t had time to get on my computer or instagram the past several weeks due to the campaign we are helping friends with. Heck I haven’t even had time to clean my house. I actually broke down and said I have to stay home until it is cleaned or I won’t be able to function. I did the minimum and then finished sewing a pillow case I was making my girls.

Then there are so many things I want to make that I get lost in the what do I make first? I have so many people that ask me to sew things for them and I don’t mind but I don’t have time. I want my sewing to be for me. Heck I think I could hire someone to just sew misc things for people and make a killing because they don’t sew and want something made. But the reality is that is not what I want to do.

Actually this is what I want to do. I want to go through my house and get rid of stuff that is just stuff because I want less. I want to put my fabric stash in my china cabinet with my china because they are both special to me. I want to look at both of them everyday! I yearn for creativity but when there is stuff to clean, to do, to look at I get lost. I like being someone who doesn’t commit to too much but lately I have. I think I am going to say no a little bit more this Fall and Winter and spend some time feeding my creativity. I think I will be a better person for it.

Do you ever feel this way?